Fetish

heaven on earth

2010-09-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

Getting exhausted and lazy nowadays. And doctor says I'm Claustrophobic. LOLS!

Being with you is like being in a race car. Challenging. Violent. But smooth.
I'm the rocker chic while you're the dangdut drifter.

And its been awhile that I hadnt been shopping and it was KE-RAE-ZI!

Hari Raya doesnt feels like it used to be. It felt so dead? Or maybe silent?

Ok its 1am..have yet to pack my stuffs for take-off 2mrw. And lots of things to do.

twilight

2010-08-17T00:51:00.002+08:00

Its already Ramadan.
Its the first year without dad. Somehow it feels different but sometimes it really doesnt.

Ive missed him.

Some things happened unexpectedly.

Good girls gone bad. And you cant get out of it.

shake

2010-07-14T23:23:00.004+08:00

Thought of taking MC on Friday to cabut to JB, skali betul2 sick..until 2day.
Padan muka. haha

Johor was fun.
Late night supper.

High fever kira rabak punya.
Bebual pun dah macam minah malaysia.
Waduhh..dh susah nak talk in english lah pulak.
MALAYSIA BOLEH! wth. hahaha

Waiting for the right moment. I know what you want.
I aint born yesterday ok darling.

yank

2010-07-08T20:15:00.002+08:00

COOL BLOG is the new thing in town!!

haha. This just makes me laugh so hard that I cant stop.

Cool blog= bubble tea shop in JB aka Sweet Talk
blearghs.

If lying to myself is bad enough, then what's lying to the whole world?

I am sooo having the time of my life. I believe in doing everything when you're young.
Planning out the things that needs to be done or do...but seems like its so hard to follow up.

Now, I'm simply hate my job. There's not a single chance to take MC. Its bloody bloody hard okay!
This work is getting worst man. Very damn tiring.
Need a new job please..!

Am I running away or am I just ignoring? Well, I dont even know myself.

"Aku tak mau bicara
Sebelum kau cerita semua
Apa maumu, siapa dirinya
Tak betah bila ada yang lain"

This song is actually nice to listen to.

Izzy is now a minah rempit jiwang!! Tak boleh angs!

wth. haha

Anyway I just fits perfectly into your arms. And I love talking WA LU BRO THER with you.

blearghs. (:

high end maintenance

2010-07-05T00:03:00.004+08:00

You give me a rush MR.
Life would be party it'd be ecstacy.

Ok people this is very hard.
Me...you..is not working out.
Uuurghh!! This is very very very complicatedly hard..

To do list:
First..progressing my investment.
Second..facial appointment.
Third..Amirul Wedding
Fourth..Lobster cum Fireflies @ Desaru w colleagues.
Fifth..Port Dickson w Khairul
Sixth..uni application by mid august
Seventh..submit schedule for august
Eight..Start cleaning up
Nineth..is that how u spell it??
Tenth..have to keep repeating this else i forgets and everything will replay in my head.

Theres to many of yous but i'll pick you. Love you baby.

i cant love you anymore

2010-07-03T01:55:00.004+08:00

Finally there's life to my blog!

Justin Bieber songs are catchy and stucks in your head. wth.

What the hell was I thinking?
I had no idea what I'm doing but somewhat I knew it's wrong.

Sometimes I just wonder, why do people have the face to borrow when they know they cant afford to give back or maybe planning not to give back. Are you?

Why are people money crazy? Am I one of them? I may say I'm not, but who isnt?
He who knows he has enough is rich. Isit true? Why do you want so much of it for?
I'm tired of it already. Uuurghh!

I am annoyingly thinking too too much. And the effect, my ugly face is getting uglier.
First, need to book a facial appointment. Second, starts saving please. Third, submit study application. Lastly, holiday again.

Away from work for so many days, I suddenly felt different going to work.
Whats my dream job? Doing event and getting to travel! Everyone wants to travel dont they?
Well, have to fight for that post.

I'm just stuck here with nothing to survive.

fo bo

2010-06-30T18:07:00.002+08:00

It was a blastful wonderful life.
Back frm my my short getaway...continue with my holiday in SG.
blearghs. And next stop port dickson with my new bo. Isnt it getting better.
Better than I expect it to be.

Sometimes when you dont expect things to happen it happens. Spending my time with you was awesome...i dont know what i really am feeling. But i am going to give it a try. ok baby!

But why do I still want you..?

pink is blue

2010-06-25T10:28:00.005+08:00

And I'm back! And a little 'jetlagged'.

My short getaway was a short and random one but its worth it!
And I got to drive on the malaysian road! But very scary lah.
Was supposed to go home on Thursday but its just too short.

My first travel before 21 is checked!

It doesnt matter.

short getaway

2010-06-23T17:29:00.001+08:00

Off to malaysia alone. This is a bloody random trip.
Will be back tomorrow.

I cant believe I'm doing this. Lucky mum approves.
Yeahh..finally out of SG.

badeya say do you remember

2010-06-22T23:42:00.005+08:00

Never say never.

Karate kid was awesome awesome AWESOME!
First movie date with my pretty cousin. It was fun and fun.
Didnt know we got so much to talk about and have in common. Coolness!

Well my blog is currently under progress but I am super duper extra lazy to change certain things...the codes are so messy. Aiyo! And yeahh..I'm back to grey. Can't run away from it I guess. Its just sooo my colour. hahaha

Can I go travelling please. Im going somewhere if really theres no one is going with me, I'm just gonna go alone. Maybe Australia? Or maybe first stop Sunway Lagoon..MTVASIA WorldStage..gonna win those tix no matter what. Got Taylor Swift liaw. haha.

Man, I seriously dont know what to do with my chalet. Some free tix and a whole two night stay. Alone? Check in and leave it unattended prolly. Or maybe it can be the start of my travelling journey. I dont know why and what makes me so tempted to go travelling. I just want to do this before I'm 21. Anyone, travelling partner? How about you MR? And maybe a boyfriend for my 21st. hahaha. wth.

I like you.
You like her.

sing me a song

2010-06-17T21:47:00.005+08:00

Lower the volume of your comp. I'm deafening.

I hate to be stood up.

And on the other hand, I do not want to make it happen, I want it to just happen.
That would be the sweetest thing.

And and I'll make you fall in love again. Until you're mine. I won't stop.
Redonkulous.

you

2010-06-12T02:37:00.008+08:00

But if I had you, that would be the only thing I would ever need

Then I would jump and and fall into you.

white

2010-06-09T01:44:00.003+08:00

Kidnap my heart, take it with you..

Bangs my head on the wall.

Dance like never before.

Sing my lungs out.

Spins around.

Fall.

I believe in fairytales. I believe its true.

Feel the rain on your skin..... <3

u make me smile

2010-06-06T12:33:00.002+08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteen..

Customer is not always right. Customers always wins.
It will always be my weakness to a good service.
They makes you feel good. They understands your needs.
And I will end up spending money in that store even thought I dont really need it.

Look for the girl with a broken smile.

starstrukk

2010-05-29T11:47:00.002+08:00

Fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars....

Well, I think its time to change my blogskin. Maybe something a little cheerful like yellow or maybe sweet like pink or maybe hot like red or cool like blue...
Maybe grey is getting dull but anyhow I still loves grey.

Random: My handwritting is getting cursive-er and I'm loving it. *lols*

Anyways, I would love to love again. It's just a beautiful feeling..isnt it...? But somehow, my tan tall and handsome doesnt come by easily. Well well..haha.

Sometimes its just tired to be alone. Not that Im complaining, but seriously, it is hard.
Shopping, movies..alone can be interesting, but its not as fun.

Doing things myself, I mean look its hard to make everyone happy and for me to hide everything from everyone, especially mum. Thats the reasons why Id rather be outside. Run away from everything.

Its always nice to enjoy the ride, but after a while you get bored cause its the same things again and again.

And now I'm stuck in the middle. How do I run? Where do I hide?

When everyone says why you so happy. he he. Do I really am? Well yeahh..I had to do dont I. Mustnt get all the negative emotions ruin my day.

And when theres too many options or no options at all, and no one to turns to, I just leave it hanging till I remembers it again.

Do I want to be rich. Well hell yeahh...who doesnt? But I want to be smart too..not just sit and do nothing.

Lastly, I do believe in fairytales and happy ending and one day I'm gonna ride the horse and have my own strawberry garden.

You and I collide...

money

2010-05-24T17:56:00.002+08:00

You're gonna get caught.

I'm super exhausted. I'm brain-drainage.

I dont go crazy for money. And I'm not money-crazy.

dakota

2010-05-20T01:03:00.003+08:00

You are my heaven on earth. You are my last my first.

I'm getting fatter or I'm just thinking that I'm fat. But really no one believes.
I cant fit in to my pants. LULS. Maybe all the foods I ate is stored in my ass. haha. wth!

Ok. Works been great. Maybe love the job. Cause first: I decides, second: I approves, third: I..am the cutest. blearghs...hahaha.

Man..one thing I cant get away from urghh! I see money in you was in their head prolly.
*Knock my head on the wall*

Ya know, you could you just tell me what you actually wants from me. Give me a clear fine clue puh-lease. Oh dear.

And you..you're scandal-ous.

And MR...don't you think you could keep me hanging like that.

And you MR..stop being a sweet-talker. ok can?

The last song was great..except to much of the kissing part. Darn..I teared like mad. wth. haha. That was how I looked like at the hospital on that very day. Scared. Only she gets to talk to her dad. I dont. And she got back her bf. hahaha. wth. Thats not important anyway. And any who..i give it a thumbs up and worth watching.

Oh my my my

Korea Korea..wo ho ho.

fall for you

2010-05-16T23:57:00.002+08:00

Somebody saaaaavvvvveeee meeeee.......

This is the only words that is in my head. And ..somebody kill me please. haha

Man, life is hard isnt it? Its hard to survive. Its hard to please everyone. And the hardest of all..ITS HARD TO BE EARLY!

"Apa nak jadi dunia ni?! Susah lah" as Calvin would say. haha. and I would always laugh cause its funny. Cheeky fellow. haha.

"Look for the girl with a broken smile. Ask her if she wants to stay a while, and she will be loved"

I do want to stay. (:

David Henry is hot. Sterling Knight is charming. Can I have both?
*OMG* blearghs.

You are one sweet talker! I hate you. hahahah

dinner mr

2010-04-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

Why am I so paranoid and what am I paranoid about.

If I did text it may sounds I'm desperate. But if I didnt it might means uninterested.
This strong feeling wouldnt leave me alone. Oh dear.

Another day another drama.
Another drama another day.

choose.

forever and always

2010-04-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

Shidah dear, you are right. I shouldnt be buying those kind of books. (..but its hilarious) (:

And the more I got into the story and the more it relates. Well, at least it saves my time writing my own. And so, I'm not the only one that is mad. At least its something good to know.

Man..work is getting busy but fun. Just fun. Not fun fun. Its adrenaline rush fun. Get it?

Ok. That should be me holding your hands. I never told you. lalala.

smile like i always do not you

2010-04-12T01:34:00.005+08:00

It was a marathon.
This month only its coming to 5.

I don't know what I want actually.
Is it F or is it F?
Choose.

Wooo. Love the saturday and love my job. sometimes.
Most of the time. err..maybe.

The idea of going to work is just oh man..
but its kind of a OH-KAY when i'm at work.
Shifts are finally feels so bored and sucks big time.

But lets look at the good side shall we...so much for the free things. haha

And was reading my new bought book which i bought it without even thinking twice.
This statement is just so true.

"Men don't look for their Miss Right the way we girls do to find the perfect
man."

And before this I do realize you don't have to try so hard to please others.
All you have to do is please yourself. And believe me I'm very choosy. And
therefore, I'm not trying to hard to be Miss Popular like you do Mr Wannabe
Popular.

You are the thunder I am the lightning...lalalalala

hey MR

2010-04-09T01:02:00.002+08:00

Where have you been MR?

Its shipped and delivered. Man..I cant believe I'm spending that much.
Somehow things are just not meant to be between you and me.
Well..just getting over Mr Right. Hahaha. And the story is hilarious. I'm only a few chapters and I cant stop laughing. And again..I cant believe I'm spending these much.

Some things are just as annoying as it gets. And please stop bugging me.
And please, your sarcasm doesnt work on me oh-kay!?

You are like a letter left unread. My life is my message.

isnt it

2010-03-30T00:15:00.001+08:00

1271-1944-1:52:09

Havnt had a second to breathe.
Some numbers just seems familiar.

izzy is in love with you

2010-03-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

This is really hard.
If only you could tell.
I wouldnt have to ask.
But if I had to, I have too.

Maybe you could just say those words.
To keep me from wandering whom it concerns.
My hearts just pounds everytime I see those sentences.
I can't help but reads.

I'll make it easier for you.
I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU.

(:

izzy is in love with you

2010-03-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

You called. Yay!
I'll tell you I send my misses to the wind.

Sometimes when I says it didnt bother, it did.
When I said it doesnt matters, it does.
Even when I dont want to know, the more I want to.
The more I see the more I'm into it.

I just wants it to disappear.
Disappears into the infinity and beyond.
Lock it in a chest and throw it out to the space.
Bury the key in the bottom of the ocean.

If being yourself is already hard enough, why are trying so hard to be me.
Get your own identity.You nimron!

thats why you love me

2010-03-26T00:46:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary

I think I'm mad. Well maybe not. I've been looking at the photos in my FB account and I just don't know how many times I have been looking at it. And secondly I just seems to not can sleep.
And today Wizards of Waverly place was super lame, but though I still loves you David Henry, you're super hot and cute! Wohoo!!

Guess what diary, finally I did it myself! I went to watch a movie alone. Weee! And I love the feeling. Its like watching TV at home only bigger. But home's better. Shall do it again whenever I want to.

And Starhub has been giving me an unexpected service after I gave them my feedback/complain. LOLS! That was fun-ny.

And sometimes I wished that I could talk to someone when I couldnt sleep and get everything out of my head. Well, that someone has not arrived yet. Flight delay I guessed. Doinks.

Well I think I'm starting to blabber. I think I miss someone, but...its hard. I don't how to say it. And I don't know who to tell. Aiyo.

I just wants to see you again but..man..this is hard.

And lastly CANON is hot and sassy! I'm loving it.

xoxo
Izzy

my name is Izyan Nasser

2010-03-17T19:51:00.005+08:00

I came to realise that I was with dad throughout his last days. Even its not really 'with' dad. I didnt write to brag or to tell people. Its just something that I could read back and remembers what happen on the very day. Its kinda of a month plus already but the event just flashs back in my mind.

It was wednesday, the day before my dad died. I was late for my training and my dad called me asking me to wait for him...he doesnt feel like going to work. And I kept calling him asking where he was already. That was the last time I really talked to him. He went home, clean the house, do the laundry and everything. And everything was like normal. And at night I just feels that something is wrong somewhere and I just don't feels right. I kept walking here and there cause I know something is not right and I just can't figure out what it is. And the next morning, as per normal, he's going to work, I salam him but dont really see his face, my eyes was in sleep mode.

I was at training when I received the call from the hospital. I thought A&E was an insurance company so I was not interested in talking, but when the person on the other line said "Do you know that your father was in the hospital?" I was shocked. It wasnt serious in the first place. But the second call was really urgent and serious. I had to send my sister down first cause I couldnt make it. At this moment I really thought nothing is gonna happen, and by the third call, I was panicking. The nurse was shouting where are you already? I kept calling my sister and my sister called me too to update me on the status. I just couldnt bare to stay for the training so I just went off straight to the hospital. I had no choice but to take a cab. I was already at the junction to CGH and my sister called asking me to hurry, my dad had a few more minutes..A FEW MORE MINUTES! I just couldnt stop crying, and panting at the same time..my heart was damn bloody fast, and I'm just so very scared.

Off the cab, still on the line with my sister, crying, running, panicking and scared. I just couldnt find the place name Lobby B, no nurse wants to help. I was running round and round. I just wants to shout. I dashed up the lift and saw my sister and aunt. We both were crying and praying and scared. We just dont know what to do. Called every uncle but none had reached. And my dad was gone. I called my uncles, everyone was shocked. We all hadnt had the chance to meet him and talk to him.

By the time I'd seen my dad'd body, I was in a shock state, couldnt find the words to say, couldnt think. I was dizzy already and my whole body was shaking. The nurse prepared a hot drink for me, some biscuits and sandwiches. Everyone finally came, I hugged my aunt and never let got. I somehow loving the moment that everyone was there to help me with everything. Both me and my sister was so lost and don;'t know what to do next. We don't even know anything, the procedures or whatever the doctor is gonna explain.

And I forgot to say, we couldnt get through my mum since the call from the hospital. This is the frustrating part, and it makes us both even more sad. No one could ever imagine hows the situation and atmosphere is like for the both of us. Its the worst day of my life. I dont care about anything else.

And I still feel guilty for the words I said that home is hell.

little mary says what

2010-03-09T19:08:00.002+08:00

I've been having retail therapy since march started! Could someone tell me to cut down!

Macaroons is soft and chewy in the inside that i had to have more.
Cakes is soo indulging and teeth-clenching .
Ice cream and waffles is on the top of my diet list.
Chocolates never fails to make me smile.
Teas refreshes my mind and body.
And I'll get my hands on durians soon!

Well, one thing everyone has to learn to have the perfect diet and body..always eat like a champion:

One, stop thinking if u didnt finish the food its a waste. Yes its a waste but never eat more than what your body can consume.

Two, if you like to count the calories you are gonna store in your body. STOP! Its not doing any good.

Three, dont eat and walk and do whatever else. Sit down and eat your meal properly.

Four, never gulge down your food. Eat slowly. It digests easier.

Five, dont eat according to your emotions, get that body pump up and move to the groove.

And lastly, laughs and you'll have the perfect diet and the perfect body. (:

dear dad

2010-03-06T22:19:00.005+08:00

Dear Dad

Its been a month since you're gone. I still misses you.
I just wants you to know that I will promise you that I would take good care of Ibu, Izzah and Nani.
Its been hard on me lately, but everyone is trying their best to help me..Mak Busu, Cik Nasric..
I never realised how much people around me loves me so much.

I had done my very best and I will continue to strive for the best for our family. You dont have to worry. This I promise you.

This taught me a very important lesson. Our families got closer..everyone's there for us..
And lastly this makes me a stronger person and be more responsible.

4 Feb 2010
This was the day you left us.
This was the day I cried like never before.
This was the day that I knew that everyone loves me.
This was the day I felt the worst.
This was the day that I was so scared.
This was the day I'm lost.
This was the day I realised that..
I LOVE YOU.

Tiada itu kemudahan melainkan apa yang kau jadikan yang sukar itu mudah. Mudahkanlah segalanya yang akan kau berikan kepadaku. Amin.

we me you

2010-01-25T11:24:00.002+08:00

I'm loving the song UNTIL YOU'RE MINE by DEMI LAVATO!

weeee...!!

Can't really go to sleep at night. But can sleep like nobody business in the day. But still not growing any fats. Aiyo.

hot-el

2010-01-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

I smells your fucking body spray everywhere.

you're gay

2010-01-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

I smoke. I drink. I club. I did. Oh bugger.

Working at night was fun but damn bloody tiring.
And when you got back, all you want to do is sleep. Wake up again to go to work.

Medical check-up tomorrow. Amara Hotel.

Now reading: Whats's a girl to do with An Offer You Can't Refuse (Jill Mansell)
Playlist: I Am (Mary J. Blige)

just thoughts

2010-01-13T02:26:00.001+08:00

I've created a new blog. Please feel free to check it out.

http://talkthethought.blogspot.com

the wheels on the bus

2010-01-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

Weeeets!

ExplorerKids at EHub was FUN!

Ok. I admit that I am 20 years old, but who cares. I can have all the fun in the world.
Its always fun to hang out with the best of cousins and of cause my Aunty Pretty.
Climb up the low ceiling playground, go down the slide..and jump around, not forgetting the rock climbing!
But its this place is not as fun as FunDazzle(for those who knows this place when you were as little as me.) Its far more bigger and better.

Admission child: $22 (1hr)
Adult per child: $1.50 only

talk out loud

2010-01-06T00:03:00.004+08:00

Izzy can cook.
All this while, staying at home. Now I can cook. LOLS

Feeling free and happy. Main priority is to gain weight.
While some people wants to lose weight, I'm the opposite.
And maybe that is their resolution, but they will say it again the next year and the next.
Well, I'm 3kg more to go.

My jacket is halfway done. Don't know when I'm gonna continue finishing it. Its all out of shape.

And lastly, I have my eye on the prize. Just that I'm a little fickle mind.

roll that dice

2010-01-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

I just feels like blogging. So here I go.

First thing first. Anyone can be one. Not only you. Nowadays everyone owns one. So it does not really matters. Its not a super big deal. ~ Oh Snap!

Secondly, like someone said, flying fully paid for or rather "FREE" is not counted. Travel with your hard earned money and that is when you know you have succeed. So I heard they gonna stop it or something like that. Well, that would be great.

Thirdly, see ya in court baby. I'm eliminating you. *Roll Eyes*

Fourthly, I'm obsessing. Oh well, you're gay then.

Lastly, hates SPOIL BRATS= annoying kids that does not know how to behave.

PLAYLIST:
Don't Let It Go To Your Head- Jordin Sparks
Whataya Want From Me- Adam Lambert

bad romance

2010-01-01T04:31:00.003+08:00

Happy 2010 Peeps! Hope this new year will bring happiness to us all.

And to my dearest sweetheart, Shidah, thanks for following me. You're such a dear. Hee. I owe you super big time! (:

I love you all. I miss you guys.

Izzy can't wait to see Sofiyyah . hehehe

listen and learn

2009-12-30T23:14:00.004+08:00

The population in Singapore for this 2009 is almost 5 million, and about 3.7 million are Singapore Residents that includes 0.5 million of them as Permanent Residents.

Out of this 3.7 million, 2.7 million is Chinese, which already covers 2/3 of the population, and the other 1/3 is between the Malays(0.5), Indians(0.3) and Others(0.1).

And now lets talk about Singapore Idol, while some thinks that its not a fair game cause it seems like its a Malay Idol. What can they do about it? The results out. People have voted. Like my dad says people have been saying Malays is only good at this kind of thing. Isnt it at least a plus point that at least we are good at something. And who knows 10 years down the road, its us that contribute to Singapore economy. Well.

On the other hand, the training I attended with my best friend, reminded me of the documentary I watched. Dr. Mahathir mission and vision is to change the Malay mindset and make the Malay community move forward, but atfer years of trying to achieve that he fails. Because 'Melayu Mudah Lupa'. This is Dr. Mahathir's blog: http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/

And recently about the dilapidation of the Malay society. Lets us all begin the new year with a new resolution. No one can change you except yourself.

people people

2009-12-29T01:40:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm really glad that Sezairi had won. He's a great musician. But on the other hand, Sylvia has got a powerful voice.

Either way, both are talented.

But whats wrong with some people. These foreigners, they should actually be greatful that they got employment here in Singapore and leaving some of us Singaporeans jobless. I somewhat agreed with some comment from Facebook, they are conquering every inch of our country. And they shouldn't be argueing. Arent they ashame? They are having a real good life here and showing off, while some of their family members back at home are starving, overcoming natural disasters. Its not like we are really against all of you, just be mindful that you are still not naturally Singaporean. So don't act like you are. No matter how hard u try to be local, it still does not work. And those fan page is very stupid and lame and very unprofessional. Just be greatful that you had the chance to have a better life here.

And some artist are so being unprofessional. While some looks like they are the top of the world but they are not.

a meltdown

2009-12-26T22:51:00.003+08:00

I miss the old us.

The way I loved you.
The way you hold me tight.

The time we spent.
The time we were so close.

And when there is you, there's always me.
And when there is me, there will always be you.

The days we went home together.
The days we share stories.

The laughters, the crazy moments.
The joy, the fun.
The success and the failures.

People moves on.

big round specs

2009-12-23T16:41:00.003+08:00

I hate myself. I just want to cry.
And because of that stupid interview. ..now theres none left in that bag.

Go to the big ocean...and shout! ARGHHHHH!!!

I'm happy for my sister, as she finally get a job. Yey!

i have to see you again

2009-12-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

Its been a lovely day today. Cycled in the rain. Was drenching..well, not really.

No sense of urgency is the word to describe this someone.

And this another someone has been stuck in my head for ever since a few hours ago.
Still in my head.

Finally you called! Its a pleasure.

And lastly saw BFLTAF.

Izzy: You are my destiny....!!!
Background: You are my nightmare.

Everyone pray for me. Amin.

vespa missed

2009-12-21T20:18:00.002+08:00

Man...its a whole week of Blind Mice at the playground. And let me tell you its a whole lot of fun. And for that moment, everything was forgotten. And i mean everything.

Anyone free on 31 December from morning?

25 December: Taufik Batisah @ 8.30pm

skeptical

2009-12-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

Ratiocination: the process of reasoning.

err..arr...like..i mean..err...ok..erm..i'm lost *laughs*

(a crooked kind of perfect)

Break Out

2009-12-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

And afterall, I always know that I am somewhat invisible and I cant fit in. So I just gonna get it loose and move on. Its a circle of life.

just maybe

2009-12-05T01:34:00.005+08:00

Maybe now I should develop an interest. All I always wanted to do is to make my own clothes and stuffs like that. Wouldn't it be cool. I know. Everyone wants to do that...but its just a matter of whether you want to make it happen or leave it as a dream. How about I make that as my New Year's Resolution, since its like less than a month to a new year 2010. I will try and make sure that I would take up sewing lesson and get my own sewing machine. Lets see how far I could make this work for me. And today went to my aunt's place, thought of putting together all the pieces of cloth that I had cut. However she went..."Alamak..apa yang kau gunting..ni macam, macam mana nak jahit..?!" haha. yea.

But now all I need is a job to support myself and my family. Its been tough for awhile. And it has always been. Another new year's resolution is to change the way we live.

Finally, I want to travel and see the world. Always admired Ashley Isham.

strums my guitar

2009-12-04T00:18:00.002+08:00

All's running away. Fine. Go run. Hide. Don't ever come out.
Let me just jump and fall and kill myself.

the last thing i need is a hug and someone to tell me that everything's alright.
well..hello? ok. there's no one.

the last song

2009-11-26T01:54:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG OMG
Saw a video that my cousin likes on FB and its Miley Cyrus!!

I'm so gonna watch..!!! From the director of "The Notebook", based on the story written by Nicholas Spark. Maybe I could buy the book and read it first. The movie is out next year April. And I'm so excited to watch it. Anyone?

I wish you could watch it with me. :)

my sad life

2009-11-21T03:35:00.004+08:00

one: eb deyolpme

two: yenom srettam

three: borhtraeh noitcudes

four: koobeton

five: rlsd aremac

i'm seeking your attention

2009-11-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

...in continuation of the blog post SOD. let me tell you..I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!! and i did message someone to make sure you are not..so...apparently you are not. now seriously....i was just being friendly and as a GOOD friend i feel that i had to tell you that you are stupid and you are being STUPID. dont friends do that..tell their friends what they had done wrong or whatsoever..hah! and puh-lease. one more thing...who is all over who...who is the coward here..go and think back..if you want that old black scrapbook with pictures and notes and stories to make you remember..u can have it..but wait...oh man..its torn into a million pieces. and its burnt. too bad then..oh well. and yeah..i'm an attention seeker so all of you did fall for it ay. hahaha.
peace out suckers.

childish talks

2009-11-16T14:26:00.003+08:00

Losers replies to stupid comments.
Idiots entertain unecessary actions
COWARDS gets idiots and losers to stand up for them.

If you are smart, you ignored.
And so I just dont bother with those minor stupid things.

And the phrase "I tell my father" is so primary school.

And so I thought you are mature enough to think.

And "I got a call" is a lame excuse.

And if you think I'm desperate to get you back. OH PUH-LEASE!
I dont take second-hand.

And finally someone is sweet enough to ask for my orders and the bills.

sod

2009-11-12T21:32:00.001+08:00

guilty conscience is over. so whatever. fuck.

live laugh love

2009-11-11T21:17:00.006+08:00

Man..its been like almost a month that my knee hurts like mad.
Its either the bone or the muscle or the ligaments.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Can't wait for friday.

..and Saturday. =)

Singapore Idol @ AMK Hub. Like wth. hmph!

swees

2009-11-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

The Barista is soo sweet to make this for my hot chocolate. =) I'm Loving It!

i really have to lock all the doors to my wardrobe and hide all my make-up stuffs and clips and accessories. seriously if not it will all be gone. there's a robber.

dilly dally

2009-11-04T21:57:00.003+08:00

Went out with Azzie. Random shots.

breathe

2009-11-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'm giving 5 for this movie. Its worth the six bucks that we paid for. Man...we cried lor. Damn sweet and sad. Its a much watch.

One thing for sure...guys sucks at lying and pretending. Sod.

Never simple. Never Easy. Breathe.

asshole

2009-10-27T22:59:00.004+08:00

I had enough of your bloody stupid lies.
I hate you to the earth core.
I hate you forever.

Coward for you.
Slut for her!
Fuck off idiots.

what if

2009-10-22T20:12:00.001+08:00

What if you know you are dying.

gaze

2009-10-18T16:48:00.002+08:00

He who laughs at himself never runs out of things to laugh at.

I never get bored looking at you. Thinking of you.

I always knew you dont belong to me. Ever since she's your number 1.
You will never protect her unless you really loves her. And you did.
I also knew you never loved me sincerely.
Its all so obvious. I aint that stupid. You can never outsmart me.
Afterall, I dont date idiots.

And when I couldnt park my car. I laughed.
Its always a happy ending, cause that is what I believes.

I break rules

2009-10-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

Oopsy daisy I hurt you again
Crushed your heart in the palm of my hands
If you walk out baby i'll understand
Cos all i'll do is hurt you again

The Ugly Truth was FUN and FUNNY!!
Thanks for the date sweethearts!
Its good to watch when you are not dating anyone..or is it seeing anyone?
But who cares...cause i think you can be seeing anyone but be dating ONLY someone.
I love you guys.

You're missing out. I didnt lose anything.
Its so much better when you can do things without being watch over.

Movie Date Friday
Dinner Date Wednesday
Seventeen Date Saturday

broken

2009-09-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for breakfast meeting. I don't even know your name.

only

2009-09-21T11:51:00.002+08:00

My only birthday wish is to celebrate it with you. But I know it will never come true.

S.J.

2009-09-20T10:37:00.002+08:00

Everything is a lie.
Im going crazy.
A moment I would be sad thinking of you.
And tears will just roll down.
But another moment I will be just mad and annoyed at you.
My head is taking over my emotions.
Why is it so hard.
The true fact I miss you.
And I would have to think of something bad to get rid of the feeling.
And it hurts pretty bad.
I MISS YOU!

bloody day

2009-09-18T01:39:00.006+08:00

U EVIL BLOODY BASTARD

By right you want it long time ago so you can have all the freedom and right to flirt around. And you are just waiting for the damn bloody right time to do that. How stupid can I get all this while. Its pretty obvious and I still couldnt bloody see it. I'm fooled. And whats the intentions of FRIENDS? So you can flirt around with me next time. Thats not my game. Its your bloody game. Not all friendship works. At first you see it then before you know it its gone. If you are done with me. I bloody hell am done with you. I'm sorry is that right? Well..ya..if you think its no..but do you think I care? I bloody hell don't care. And I've learned. All I care is my own well beings. I already said it. I bloody damn said whatever to you. WHATEVER! I repeat WHATEVER!

And yes..I damn love your bloody good sentence that you repeated everytime I asked.

And KARMA will repeat it for you. Cause that is what you believe isnt it? Yeah. And on that bloody day, I will just stand and watch you fall. And all you can hear is my evil bloody laughter.

dark evil

2009-09-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

TO LOVE IS TO FORGIVE.

ANGER BEGINS WITH FOLLY, AND ENDS WITH REGRET.

What you see is not what it really is.

Leave me alone and I will tear.

Anger strikes again.

The urge to smash the glass window is so strong.

But I couldnt.

The emotional state is too powerful.

Imaginary ailments.

Waiting for miracles to happen.

But it wont.

The desire lingers.

It just wont leave.

Every thoughts kills.

It leaves a scar.

I tattoo your name across my heart.

So no one can erase it.

Not even you.

Not even me.

Every night.

I dreamt you.

You feel so close.

But I know.

You wont be there when I wake up.

Its a beautiful nightmare.

A perfect lullaby.

I wished it stays forever.

My world happens to revolve around you.

And every thing I do or did

Reminds me of you.

And the only way to clear it out of my head.

And to tear you off my heart.

I told myself.

Bloody Bastard.

Its no joke.

And it will fade away.

i rebelled

2009-09-16T23:12:00.004+08:00

On my way home when I saw this little baby staring at me with her big round eyes.
I was kinda in a "whatever to you" mood and was eating cheeseburger. And she keep staring.
And so I came to her said hi and talked to her mum. So her name was Najwa, about 1 year plus old. And we took the same bus. And she just cant keep her eyes off me. haha. So I sat beside her and her mum and I somewhat played along with her. And when they reached their stop, Najwa made a friend kiss. Hahaha. And I did it back to her. And she made my day.

And Aunty Pretty!!! I miss Soffiyah!!!!

And they got back together, she got married to him, the other got pregnant with some other guy and his girlfriend don't wants him back. And what happen to her?

And she falls in love with him. And him admires him and dumped her.

I think I may be falling for you.

one word

2009-09-16T00:02:00.005+08:00

UUUAAAARRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

There, finally I shouted my lungs out. You annoying sod. Who cares about whatever you want to do. Who cares how filthy rich you are. Who cares how smart you are. Who cares if you got the looks.Who cares if you are popular. Who cares for your time, Who cares for what things you care for. Who cares and who cares. Sod. Just keep your mouth shut. You just have no guts and your ego is higher than the skyscaper. Dont even bother to care. Cause now, I AM SAYING WHATEVER TO YOU! I had enough. How greatful am I to get out of the enclosed dark suffocating room. And finally I get to wake up and smell the coffee. You are just a stranger passing by.

flea

2009-09-13T16:04:00.002+08:00

Can I just shout out loud like no one's business? Its so sudden. Really is very sudden. Didnt expect it to come this fast.

Can't love and be hurt again.

fetish

2009-09-10T00:09:00.003+08:00

"It will never happen" is just the right words that motivate me to let go and move on. And I'm already over it.

And the drastic weight loss had motivated me to keep fit and healthy *even though I ate chocolates everyday* but it works ok. Now I have gained back some weight that I lost. And I'm so proud of myself. *applause* haha. blearghs.

Lunch break was so bored. But ever since I figured out where the library was..so its my hang out place every lunch. And everytime I go to the library, I would sure borrow a book. And now I was figuring out how I could finish reading all of them. I'm sooo kiasu.

I kept thinking what I did wrong, but I grew strong, I learn how to carry on. Hush Hush

chocolates is loved

2009-09-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

These chocolates are soo gonna be my weight gainer for now. Even thought it wont help much. But hey who don't like cholocates right? blearghs. Pssst...if you wanna buy chocolates right...go to Changi Airport(I always go to T3)...The Cocoa Trees..its very worth it...cause there is no GST. And its so much cheaper. And if you buy jelly beans before 2pm..you get 100gm free. No kidding.

Don't ask. I'll be sincere.

Astrology

2009-09-03T22:08:00.001+08:00

These two star signs will do very well together if Sagittarius can manage to be around long enough to fulfil Libra's inherent need for togetherness.
Libra too must allow her partner some freedom to pursue his own interests.

Maybe this is the reason for everything. Well, its time to let go and move on.

remember me remember my name

2009-09-01T23:00:00.006+08:00

Break my fast in the bus eating LJS, I eat like nobody business, nasib tak kene chase away by the bus driver. haha

Work is so bored at AMK, like cannot on the radio cause later the apek cannot concentrate to do his work. And the room is so quiet. Then I don't have much work to do until I don't know what to do. Some things that I'm used to doing, the apek wants to do..so let him do lor. Was reading this book "Crazy in Love", so damn funny. hahaha. She tried so hard to get the guy that she had a crush on, somewhat like me. But its never worth it. I learned my lesson.

Anyway...i am losing weight drastically and its scary. I dont like being skinny. I work so hard to gain some weight, now its like 42. And I can see that my legs are looking more like chopsticks. And its ugly. My hands are sooo much smaller than before. Man..i'm paranoid.

Its not that I dont want to. But I'm afraid. Afraid of whats gonna happen...scared of what i would feel...scared of getting hurt again. Its hard. I'm not playing any game. Its not even a game. Its a wise decision that I had made after giving thoughts to it. You make me begged and begged like a shameless bitch. And now I just dont have the same feelings like when I begged for it. It had gone down the drain like how you throw me aside. Prove it. Now I'm saying it back to you. I don't care if it take forever. If you are really sincere, you wont have any doubt about accepting it. And I'm not asking for your money nor yourself. Only time can heal the pain.

No matter how many times I said I HATE YOU, you should know that it is never true.
I didn't know that I would fall in love with you the first time I met you.

Sometimes, when you have everything, you can't really tell what matters. But to me what matter matters.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance; take it. If it changes your life; let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

"Setiap kali aku bersamamu, aku nantikan saat kau katakan I LOVE U padaku, dan aku adalah milikmu"

here we go again

2009-08-28T23:01:00.003+08:00

I throw all your stuffs away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
I tell everyone that we got through
Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
Cause I break down
Everytime you come around

So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
In trying to let you go

Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together

But I start to go insane

priceless

2009-08-20T20:26:00.004+08:00

I know you don't even want to see my face again. I will try to stay as far away as possible. I have fears. Fear of whats happening, fear of being alone. Fear of the big world. Fear of losing you. I know I cannot hope. I know nothing can change anything. Time cannot be recycled. But my emotions are just taking over me. I know this is very hard for me. You dont know how much Im suffering. I've done my part.I tried and I am trying my best. I just couldnt help it but to cry every single day and every single minute. Everyone told me not to cry. But its easier said. I wished I could stop. But i just cant. I thought I did the right thing. But it doesnt seems its paying me anything. The more I try the more I couldnt forget. The more I stop thinking, the more I cant stop thinking. I couldnt be alone. The more I would cry. I know I have to be strong, I tried to. But I'm too weak to be strong. I have a strong desire. I will do whatever. I will risk anything. I don't care if i get hit by a car, fall off the cliff or whatever. I wished I could just erase everything. I had waste alot of money. But I dont care. To me its PRICELESS.

makes me

2009-08-18T01:06:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, I am super paranoid with the songs on the radio and every where around me. Sometimes wish that it coulld be a complete silence. So I could hear anything but myself.

Works fun. Life no. But overall its ok.

Man..am I exhausted. Next weekend, it will be the fasting month. Hopefully I would be stronger during this month. I dont feel the excitement of celebrating Hari Raya.

I think there's something wrong with my body system. I had been eating and eating and eating non stop. But I couldnt eat alot...it kills my stomach. And you can see me scrouching in pain like a mother giving birth. Haha. And when it strikes it strikes. And my head would turn around and around like a washing machine.

I'm weak without you. I'm weak when its about you.
My tears roll down and I just couldnt control it.
My emotions explode without I realizing.
I wish I could have the reasons for everything.
But I couldnt seems to find it.
I just want you to know.
Its hard to let it go.
But I wouldnt show.
I'll be kind.
I'll try.

My Playlist

2009-08-17T23:28:00.003+08:00

Is complicated
Now I can't breathe..When love takes over

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around...You're not sorry

I don't know but
I think I maybe..Fallin' for you

Romeo take me
Somewhere we can be alone...Love Story

I'm not a princess..
This aint a fairy tale...White Horse

One minute its love
And suddenly its like a...Battlefield

With, every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe, its harder to believe...There no boundaries '

I'm your biggest fan
But I wont stop till that boy is mine..paparazzi

Hush Hush..I will survive

sweet memories

2009-08-09T00:01:00.001+08:00

I still love you and I still do.

your choice

2009-08-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

To whomever it may concern. You can just leave whenever you want.
To the girl next door, you can have him if you want.
To the one once upon a time, you can have him back if you want to.
To myself, its not worth crying over stupid things without thinking whats right and whats wrong.
Im done with you.

moon witnessed

2009-08-04T00:50:00.005+08:00

Finally we went to the Da Vinci Exhibition at Singapore Science Centre. The exhibition is till 16 August if you still wanna go see see. It was interesting, but somehow some things just turned me off. The tix is at 15 bucks and you just turn one round and that's the end. But we got the tix at 16 bucks and get to tour around the whole Science Centre. So not so bad lah, it is still affordable. Science Centre was soo much fun. The Tesla Coil Demo(how lightning happens, its damn cool lah) Then the Science Demo(Liquid Nitrogen, -196 degree), so cool lah..man made clouds.

Well supposedly to go for the Financial planning talk by Mr Sani. The talk starts at 11am, and guess where I am? At the polyclinic, still waiting for my queue number to see the doctor. Wth lah..missed my chance to see the good-looking consultant, but too bad lah, he's married.haha.

Anyways, I had a blastful great time with you at the Science Centre, can we visit Snow City next time? I want to see the wonders of liquid nitrogen. =) ILY.

Work was rather fun+bored. Fun is because, I walk around jalan-jalan with my new found friend Citra. We went to Metro, John Little and was missing for 3 hours. hahaha. And I was shock to see Cotton On at Causeway Point cause a few days before the shop wasnt there.

And Jolene, my another new found friend, who loves tattoo was kind enough to lend me this Japanese drama, Money Crazy. The main actor if any of you watch Death Note, he's L. He's cute ok. haha. And the uncles and abgs at TY is soo friendly, so I don't feel so scared to go to work.

What's bored is when I dunno what to do or got nothing else to do, and waiting for clock out. Damn bored I tell u. I got a Singapore Flag taped to my PC at work. hahaha

I misses you guys, us.

you don't belong with me

2009-07-30T11:01:00.005+08:00

You will always be the first to be seen at someone's profile. But not mine. That makes a difference if you are first or in whatever sequence in mine. A DAMN BIG DIFFERENCE!

But it does not matters to you cause to you it is just a small damn thing.

If you like SFHA so much, go and ask her out and date her, don't ever pretend that you still wants to be with me. I'm tired of running after something that is not gonna be mine to keep. Go. Just go and don't look back!

battlefield

2009-07-28T21:29:00.003+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute its's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise the flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Why does love always feel like a battlefield?

call me her name

2009-07-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

Should I delete my facebook account? Cause the more I look at it, the more heart break I would get. Well, will see how. I just don't know what's the word to describe it all.

preston

2009-07-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

Men are scared of anger. To us, fighting may show emotion. To them, they'd rather explain before it gets to the point of verbal punches. But sometimes, it seems that we don't buy their explanations. Why?

Hopefully 3 months would past by very quickly. But then what will I be doing after that 3 months? Maybe I should start thinking by now. Reality is tough. But its the real world, you can't run away from anything.

So its been 15 months that we've been together. Alot of things have changed. Long time ago, the expectations was never too high. But now, when you expect too much, and you don't get what you want, you'll get frustrated, and BOOM. It explodes! When it was seldom misunderstanding, to frequent misunderstanding. When there was no jealousy to seriously big jealousy. But it teaches me alot of things that I don't know. I learn. I understands. And I tried to change.

tell me

2009-07-23T00:34:00.005+08:00

Own Time Own Target is a production of the Wild Rice. Finally I went to watch it with boify today. Due to my working schedule, we only got the tix today and yey : )..its still available for tonight's show. And its full house. The show was worth the ticket price and the seating was great. The first part of the show was about running away with the army tank. And the second part was about code 302(if you know what it means). The show is super damn funny and boify said that is what really happens in camp only that its not as bad as in real life. The show was a really good laugh.

Well I highly recommends this show to those guys going to camp soon. Last day is 25 July 2009, can get the tix at sistic. Show your student card and get 10% discount. hehe.

Had a great night spent with you despite some hiccups in the morning. Honey, next show Cinderella on Ice can? *winx* And STOMP is confirmed right..10.10.2009 ok? set.

Yea I was rather sad when you took out your phone. And there are still things that are still bothering me. And hopefully you can open things up to me so I would feel more appreciated as someone than rather just being friends.

leave me straying

2009-07-20T12:30:00.003+08:00

its hard to mend a broken heart. its difficult to give 100% when its not worth it. don't try so hard to understand, coz you will never will.

under my umbrella

2009-07-13T15:17:00.005+08:00

Went to the Night Festival last Saturday with my boyfriend. The exhibit were almost the same as last year's..only the naked man statue at the main entrance is changed to a stacked pink army tank.

We didnt really walk around cause its damn pack like sardine in a can. Woah..*can't breathe*. And the long escalator...was not working...man..and not forgetting its raining. And that is why those people ran indoors.

Supposedly to meet my Fabulous Five at the museum..and me so..damn confused said that i was at SAM but actually I was at the Singapore National Museum. Muahaha. Kental..

Earlier that day, we went for the Mendaki Graduates Tea. What was the most fascinating thing was the 45 year old guy..he's into architecture and some events and did voice over for radio stations. He look so soo super like a 20+ year old guy. And believe me...if you sees him, sure you will be very shock.

And I supposedly to start work today but somehow...it starts tomorrow. Part of me wants to work and earn some money for the next few months..but somehow..the job now just scares me. Its not direct-selling but its a customer-oriented kinda job. Which is not really my forte. Its an easy job like I usually did for my past jobs..but what really scares me is to convince them. Yes its easy...but as you all know..I'm quite shy. *doinks* On a good side..at least it helps me to be more confident to interact with customers. Cause the real working world is more tough.

crazier

2009-07-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

You know you're in love
when you can't fall asleep
because reality is finally better
than your dreams...

But i think my fantasies is soo much wonderful that i don't want to leave and get back to reality.
And I open up my diary, wrote my thoughts..and i fall asleep.

read

2009-07-05T13:35:00.001+08:00

The fact is I miss you. Can't you like understand. Text me when you free.

p.s ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun.

just so u know

2009-07-04T19:09:00.003+08:00

Smalam I call you, you tak answer.
You kata you keluar pergi dinner.
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you.
But when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true.

So I drove my car pergi Damansara.
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola.
Tapi bila I sampai you, you tak ada.
Lagilah I jadi gila.

So I called and called sampai you answer.
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar.
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym.
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you.
I've always known your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.

So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/2974166/zee_avi_kantoi/

[the words in red are some excuses i heard before]

random

2009-07-03T14:55:00.004+08:00

This was taken from FB. So I post it here.

1. Where did you take your profile pic?
: BOTANIC GARDEN
2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
: A SHORT AND A T-SHIRT
3. What is your current problem?
: CANT DEFINE THE PROBLEM
4. What makes you happy most?
: ICE-CREAM WITH WAFFLE AND BROWNIES.
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
: THE CLIMB
6. Any celeb you would marry?
: ERMM..DAVID HENRY
7. Name some one/persons with the same birthday as you:
: AMIR
8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
: NO. DANCE..YES.
9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
: ERM..NO.
10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
: YES OF COZ. HANNAH MONTANA..ANYTHING ON DISNEY CHANNEL
11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
: MALAY
12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
: NOPE
13. Do you ever watch MTV?
: LIKE DUH.
14. What's something that really annoys you?
:WHEN THERE IS NO COOPERATION AND NO ONE IS LISTENING

Favorites
1. Ice Cream: COOKIE DOUGH, CARAMEL, VANILLA
2. Season: AUTUMN
3. Thing: SHOES
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Do You..
1. Do you write on your hand? YES
2. Any bad habits? SCRIBBLING ON MY HANDS
3. Any mental health issues: MAYBE
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Who/What was the last
1. Movie(s): TRANSFORMERS
2. Three people who texted you: DAD, SYAKIR, SYAFIQ
3. Person you called: INANI
4. Person you hugged: MY PILLOW
5. Person you talked to on MSN? YAP
6. Thing you touched: NANI'S NOTEBOOK
7. Thing you ate? SAUSAGE MCMUFFIN
8. Thing you drank: TEA
9. Thing you said: NAK PAKAI LAWA2 KE NAK PRACTICE AJE
13. Friend you saw: IZA

ouh shut up

2009-07-03T08:38:00.004+08:00

Had McMuffin for breakfast and its like 6.30am when me and Iza walk to Tampines Mart to have our breakfast. That is like really morning morning. Never had I went to Mac at 6.30am.
Done with laundry. Now free for the moment.

Finally i memorised the dance steps to Hoedown Throwdown(Hannah Montana the Movie). Semangat..I know.. but the moves are soo fun. haha. Yaya coming later and we gonna dance all day long..so fun!! When there are four girls in the house..its CHAOS!!

It does not matter who wins. Whos wrong. Whos fault. Its not only about yourself. Look around.
A guy cannot think like a guy think. And a girl can't think like a girl. There's a thousand different feelings in everyone. You can't blame what I feel.

miracle

2009-06-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

The thing you lost hurts.

2009-06-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

cant wait to see u.

come back

2009-06-25T21:48:00.001+08:00

I can't live a day without you.
I love you.

little little

2009-06-24T12:39:00.002+08:00

i miss the days we talk on the phone till we both feel asleep.
.HAPPY 14TH MONTH.

2009-06-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

I MISS U!

missed

2009-06-17T15:10:00.003+08:00

i fell into the drain. and it hurts. i got bruises on my knee.
was walking with boify. i know i theres a longkang and i somehow know where i wanna land my leg. and before i know it..i was falling. luckily boify managed to catch me. else i think my face would hit the ground. this is like the second time i fell into the drain. haha. luckily its not the same drain..else that drain might really have hate me.

P.s. i still remember the day i fall backward in school in front of the library. it really gave me a shock.

everything

2009-06-12T14:45:00.004+08:00

I am very hungry. Handnt had my brunch yet. My notebook is very sick. And I need to use it very badly. My camera is sick too..the pictures you took will be like damn bright and can't see a thing. My handphone has a hole in the middle. And I got no money. Need a job immediately.

And you...don't understand how i feel. I'm very heartbroken. EVERYTHING just HATES me.

like a sister

2009-06-10T23:02:00.001+08:00

Well...random. Happy 19th and 8 mths bday to me. Nitez!

beauty

2009-06-09T23:25:00.005+08:00

Had a photoshoot with my grad attire. Anyone who wants to do photoshoot can contact me. =)